Title pretty much says it all. Sorry that this is my first post here, I’m a longtime lurker and bunny appreciator though :,)
I’ve been volunteering at a rabbit shelter for about a month now and became extremely attached to one of the bunnies. I really loved her in a way I hadn’t loved any other animal before, and I have been around animals my whole life. She was/is so special to me—she would let me hold her when none of the other volunteers could, and would run right up to me and give me kisses whenever I passed by.
The shelter let me foster her for a week and we were hoping that I would be able to adopt her at the end of the foster period, but it’s become very clear that because of my life circumstances I can’t give her the ideal life I wanted to right now. I planned to adopt her and then find another bunny to bond her to at the shelter, and that they would have lots of free roam space indoors with an enclosed outdoor patio space. But I realized that due to personal family issues, now just isn’t the time to bring home a new pet much less a bunny or two.
I was crying all day yesterday and could barely even spend time with her because it made me so sad knowing I would have to say goodbye. I’m trying to enjoy the time we have left and give her the best possible experience for the next few days with endless playtime, cuddles, and exploration, but I’m so heartbroken that I’ll have to bring her back to the shelter. I really hope she will go to a home that will love her as much as I do and I’ll probably resume volunteering once the initial hurt has died down. It feels like I failed her, and I keep telling myself that if I tried harder I could make it work but I know deep down that the best option is to bring her back to the shelter. It’s just so frustrating because it’s not her care that’s the issue, or anything having to do with her at all.
I’m sorry if this is a weird post, but I just wanted somewhere to vent where people would understand me. Because if I hear another person say “it’s just a rabbit” I think I’ll go insane. I hope someday when I’m in a more stable spot I find another bunny that I connect with so deeply and I can give them the most amazing life possible. And in the meantime I’m going to ask around to people I know and trust who may be able to adopt her instead of me—at least then I’ll know for sure that she has gone to a good home and is being properly cared for.
Thanks for reading :,)
by idkwhatjmdoinghere
